It hurts.

My heart hurts. It really fucking hurts. 

There are moments that still take my breath away. Moments where I still can't believe this is all real. Moments that send me spinning back into darkness. 

I want my baby. 

Absent

It's been so long since I've written. Partially because of totally benign reasons. Work, 3 year old, life. 

Partially because I've been tired. In so many ways. I'm going to try to write more. We shall see.